Not sure I want to keep doing this

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Although I try to emphasize the artistic side of Gag College and how I'm using it to explore issues of how our media-driven culture judges people and feeds the old idea of "mob justice," I don't deny the fetishistic nature of the project.  I freely admit to being fetishistic myself.

Last month I turned 21, and since my birthday I've been to three different fetish-themed events in a big city near where I'm going to college now.  I'd been hoping that by going to these parties I could do something similar to Gag College, even if it wasn't in a "public" place.

Everywhere I went I felt incredibly uncomfortable.  It felt like everyone there either wanted to hurt me or have sex with me, and I don't want to be hurt or have sex with anyone but my girlfriend.  When I brought up what I wanted to do people laughed at me like I was talking foolishly.  I kept going to different locations in hopes of finding people who were accepting of me, but I couldn't find anyone.

Some of you understand my artistic goals with this project, but I know most of you follow my account just for the fetishistic aspects.  I used to be okay with that, but I'm not sure that I am now.

I haven't made a decision yet, but I'm giving serious thought to closing this account and ending the project.  Given how upset I've been when other deviants have pulled things without warning, I wanted to give you all fair warning so you can start downloading anything you'd like to save if I do decide to leave dA.

- NoName
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LampreyShade3D's avatar
Wow. I just read this, but yeah, the scene isn't perfect. I've never gone further than a few different fetish community websites, and some of the people you find there are pretty rigid about what they want, and they're awfully snarky. Same goes for little kids playing DotA on the internet, oddly... I tend to feel the same as you when I'm among the "community," and yet look at my output. *shrug* It's just one of those things.